Hello friends, strangers, and the World Wide Web, it’s been awhile since I have posted. Don’t get me wrong – I’ve thought about numerous posts, things to say, pictures to share, attention-getting titles; but it just hasn’t been right because my heart has been sad these past few weeks. That sadness is exactly what I didn’t want to share.
There has been so much tragedy, directly and indirectly related to me, but I seem to take it all to heart. I hate to see the pain that is thriving in this world. One of the most difficult parts of this time of year is remembering the death of my dear friend and mentor, Misty. Last month was two years since her death, and it has yet to get any easier. On one of the hardest days, when I just couldn’t come to terms with the whys, when I couldn’t stop thinking about what I could have done to prevent it – this popped up on my Facebook memories (see picture below).
How can it be, that from Heaven, she is still encouraging and loving me? Seeing this was a mix of pain, happiness, and hope. She believed in me, and that means more now than it ever did before. She spent so much time on me- loving me, praying for me, supporting me; helping me through! There’s no way I’m going to let her down now. I miss her now more than ever, but I’m also more thankful than ever that she was such an intricate part of my life and the beginning of my recovery.
So, today – I’m going to listen to the woman who saved my life. She saw me being brave then, so I can be brave today, knowing that she is still looking out for me from up above.
“The reality is that we don’t forget, move on, and have closure; but rather we honor, we remember, and incorporate the deceased into our lives in a new way. In fact, keeping memories of your loved one alive in your mind and heart is an important part of your healing journey.”
~ Harriet Schiff