Here’s to Strong Women


…may we know them, may we be them, may we raise them. πŸ’™


I am still processing this experience, now almost a month later. Never in my life have I felt so beautiful, confident, loved or free. The most important women in my life came to love me and support me while looking for the dress that I’ll marry my husband in. From Minnesota, North Dakota, Colorado & Kansas to Arizona – they all made a point to be here, and it’s still hard to wrap my head around.

I was so nervous about that weekend, my anxiety the week before was painful. Are they going to think I’m fat? Will I look fat? I’m disgusting. Will any of the dresses fit? Will they laugh? I’m ugly. Will I ever find a dress? Will he even actually want to marry me? Etc, etc… But then something amazing happened, I was free. Those self-hating negative thoughts did not make it to the fore-front of my mind all weekend; exactly the opposite of what I had anticipated. Usually, trying on clothes is nothing short of a nightmare for me, but this shopping weekend was so amazing it felt surreal.

I was not worried about my weight or size, and it’s so ironic because by no stretch am I near any of my low or goal weights. These women showed me something profound – they will love me no matter what. My husband will love me no matter what. I AM LOVED. It’s something I’ve been told my whole life, it’s something I’ve known my whole life, but only recently have I been able to actually  feel loved. A lot of it has to do with being in the healthiest relationship I’ve ever been in, a relationship where my partner encourages me to love myself, and to NOT be dependent on him to find my self-worth and value. 

This all took on a whole new life this weekend. The entire two days was magical. I don’t know that I’ve ever been able to honestly say that I love myself, but I’m truly learning how to. I never thought I would live to see a day when my eating  disorder is losing it’s grip on me, or when I can’t remember the last time I harmed myself. I have a LONG way to go. But now when I look at the tattoos on my arms, reminding me of hope and to love myself… maybe I actually can. 

Two days of laughing, a little bit of crying, celebrating and just enjoying life together. Thank you to these amazing women. My family, my best friend who has become family, and the family I’m lucky enough to be marrying into. 

&& Thank you Jesus for your mercy and grace. I am undeserving but eternally grateful for the life you’ve given me.

N.T. πŸ‘°

6 thoughts on “Here’s to Strong Women

  1. Natalie,

    You are truly beautiful. God made you in your mother’s womb so uniquely and exactly.
    I know that Misty is smiling and sending huge hugs to you and reminding you how special a young woman you are. We are so very happy for you and your future partner.

    Never forget how much God loves His creation, always has and always will.

    God bless,

    Karen Cavan


  2. I have always seen you as the beautiful and amazing woman you are. I have been waiting for the day when you would finally see yourself that way and it makes my heart so profoundly happy! I am so proud to call you my sister and I love you forever!!!


  3. Tears of joy, for sure, as I read your post, Natalie! SO happy for you. ‘Way to go !!
    Ephesians 3:20, 21. Jude 24,25.
    Prayers & Praise continue.
    With love,
    Your Grandma’s older sister :-)!


  4. Tears of joy as I read these words that I have long prayed would come from your heart. God is good! Continuing to pray for your recovery honey! I love you πŸ’•


Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s