Resilience, a word defined as “the capacity to recover quickly from difficulties; toughness.” I’ve heard this word thrown around a lot lately, as quite frankly we are all going through a difficult time- whether that be physically, mentally or emotionally.

Resilience to me, though, is more than just making it through tough times. To me, to be resilient means to fight to get through and come out stronger than you were before. Resilience is what I strive for. I’m so tired of just surviving; just “being.”

Ever since I returned from rehab last year I feel that so much of my focus has been on just making it through. First it was getting back into the “real world”, then I needed to make it through my first days back to work, then months went by. Most recently I’ve had to navigate the work from home thing, and I’m barely figuring that out.

I want to start F I G H T I N G again. Fighting for my marriage, fighting for my family, fighting for my life. I am so done being stagnant…this isn’t living. I’m done just making it through the obstacles life throws at me, I want to be resilient, and I am determined to come out stronger on the other side.


Quarantine & Recovery

A couple of weeks into this quarantine, and to be honest – I am struggling. Initially my introvert heart was very content having a valid excuse to go NO WHERE except to the barn and back… but the days are getting long. I’m finding myself desperately wanting to revert back to coping mechanisms that are extremely ineffective, and struggling to find motivation to use healthy ones. I am also realizing that the lack of alone time is wearing on me. I love my husband and I truly am loving the opportunity to spend so much time together; 24/7 though, it’s hard.

All of this to say that I’ve been thinking a lot about recovery and what it looks like during this pandemic. A few things I’ve been trying to remind myself…

  • It’s okay to not be okay.
  • This too will pass.
  • Constant productivity is not necessary.
  • I am still worthy of recovery.
  • Recovery still needs to be a priority.
  • O N E  D A Y  A T  A  T I M E

Be well, take care of YOU, and please give yourself some grace.